Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Thinking of him today

It's hard to know how much to share here...I want my blog to be a happy place and most of the time it is!  But I recognize the importance of being honest with you and sharing the good and sometimes the sad.  So I hope you'll bear with me today while I reminisce and remember my little brother on his birthday.


My brother would be 26 today.  He passed away 5 years ago this month.  Some days it's still so hard to believe he's not here.  He was a dreamer and pertinacious as all being.  His passion drove me and I will forever miss hearing about his newest idea or see his latest handmade work of art.

Tonight my dad will have dinner with all of his best friends...they have not missed a year yet, and I just love that they share in on that tradition. 

I love this picture of us...it's filled with pure love and happiness.  

Today is his day and I want him to know how much I love him, miss him, and think of him constantly.

Thanks for taking the time to stop by and for allowing me to have this space to share.

xo natasha

53 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you're hurting today. That picture is so sweet. I love the big kiddy grins. I know the pain of losing someone and its a dull aching lump in your throat that will always be there. Your post made me tear up.
    Best wishes for you and your family.

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  2. Big HUGGGSSSS to you today....

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  3. Thinking of you and your family today!

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  4. i am so sorry for your loss. i cant even imagine how hard it would be to lose a brother. much love to you. thinking of you and your family today. xo jillian

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  5. What a sweet tribute to your brother. Thinking of you and your family today.

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  6. Thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts on this day!! Hugs.

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  7. Oh- this breaks my heart. I'm an only child but *always* wished for a sibling. It's hard to imagine having one then losing them. Saying a prayer for you and your family today,
    Abby

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  8. So sorry to hear about your brother, Natasha! Thinking of you & your family today!

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  9. My heart aches for you!! I love that you are keeping his spirit alive by getting together and celebrating his short life here on earth!!

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  10. I am sending so much love your way on this day! What a sweet way to remember your brother, that is why your readers keep coming back. xoxo

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  11. We are on the same page this week it looks like..my mom's 10 year anniversary of passing is tomorrow. I'm sending you hugs your way! I def. know hard hard it can be. xo

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  12. Oh Im certainly thinking of you! I have that little knot in my throat... Hugs!

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  13. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. I know how hard it can be to lose a sibling. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today. Just remember all the good times you had.

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  14. I'm so sorry, Natasha! I just love how you are choosing to be positive about they day and calling it "his" day. He's looking down on you today and smiling! I'll be praying for your whole family today. Lots of love! xoxo

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  15. That must be so hard for you and your parents, I know what it is. Wish you a lovely dinner with your parents and friends x

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  16. So many thoughts and prayers headed your way, he sounds like an amazing guy. Hope your dinner tonight is a time of joy and remembering.

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  17. I'm so sorry to hear this :(

    I know we never lose the people we love. They live the rest of our lives with us in our heart.

    Big hug

    Sara

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  18. What a sweet post for your brother. It breaks my heart that you lost him but I love that you are keeping his memory alive. I am thinking about you and your family today! xoxo

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  19. Oh, Natasha! What a touching post. I'm so sorry for your loss and I will be thinking of you today.

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  20. Oh Natasha I am so sorry. There is nothing I can say to make this situation right, but do know that my thoughts are with you. I'm sure your brother is watching over you. Much love!
    xoxo

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  21. So sorry to hear about your brother Natasha - sometimes it just doesn't make the least amount of sense why some people have to leave so soon before their time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today!

    I love that your dad and your brother's still come together every year to celebrate his day - what a wonderful way to remember him!

    xoxo
    Jenna

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  22. I am so sorry to hear about this! I can't even imagine how hard losing such a sweet boy would have been for you and your family. I am sending lot of love to you today.

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  23. I'm so sorry for your loss Natasha, I have two brothers and cannot imagine being without them. Such a sweet tribute to your brother today. I will be thinking of you and your family today.

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  24. Do not apologize for sharing this...I think that's great that all his friends do dinner on the day every year. Thinking of you and your family!

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  25. That is such a sweet picture of you and your bro.
    Thinking of you xoxo

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  26. This is a such a sweet tribute to your brother. You'll be in my thoughts today.

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  27. Please do not be sorry about this post! I wish I could be this brave, this post just humbles me. At the end of the day our blogs are an extension of the things we love, cherish and are passionate about and I am pretty sure you your brother was all those things to you. Ok love, my thoughts are with you and your family!

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  28. hate that your sad today friend. big hugs to you.

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  29. Natasha,

    I love that you are not afraid to share both the joyful and painful things in life.This is a beautiful tribute to your brother. I am so sorry for your loss, wish I could give you a squeeze!

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  30. What a sweet post. Thinking of you and your family today.

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  31. A GIANT hug coming your way Natasha. I wish I really could! Thank you for sharing something so personal. I hope you had a wonderful day filled with many fond memories.

    ~Noelle

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  32. aw, blogs are about more than just happy. My heart breaks for you and your family. I hope that knowing he lives on in your heart brings you all some comfort. It's wonderful that you honour his memory.

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  33. I think it's so wonderful you could share that. I can't imagine how hard that would be. What a sweet tribute. That picture really does show pure love! Thinking of you today!!

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  34. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

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  35. Natasha, my thoughts are with you & your loved ones today. This is such a lovely tribute to your brother :) I am so sorry for your loss. xoxoxo brynn

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  36. My sweet friend you should NEVER apologize for sharing such amazingly special posts! Especially about what an incredible person your brother was and pictures that show amazing amounts of love!! Thinking of you & your family today.
    xoxoxox::Lauren @ tickled.

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  37. A lovely post. Think of you and your family today.
    x
    Michelle

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  38. Dear Natasha, you brought tears to my eyes...am thinking of you and your family today. Thanks for sharing your heart with us.
    Love,
    Claudia
    xo

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  39. I'm so sorry for your loss. However, I think it's wonderful how you and your Dad remember and honor your brother and honoring him on a blog post (this is your personal space, at least it is for me). Great picture by the way! And I really like that your Dad has dinner with all of your brothers' best friends. Things I remember of the ones I've lost: the laughter, the smiles, the hugs, the memories. I'm thinking of you and your family today. Much love, Heather

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  40. This is just the sweetest picture of the two of you...I love that your dad is having dinner with the besties tonight in his honor, what a sweet way to remember him (c: It's these times where I am so glad that family ties are not just for this life, but are forever. Hugs, kisses, and prayers coming your way, darling!

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  41. I'm so sorry about your brother! I'll be thinking about you and your family today! xoxo

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  42. I'm sorry you went through the pain of losing a brother. I can't even imagine want you went through and how it can still be a sad thought at times. This is a great way to remember him and think back on all of the memories you had with him. That is such an adorable picture of you with him! *tear

    Thinking of you today and sending a little prayer ;)

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  43. so sorry about your brother...and i'm glad that you have your very own space talk about it.

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  44. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose a sibling. I lost my dad when I was 10 so I know how the pain feels. Hang in there, Natasha!

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  45. this picture is indeed a sweet memory. so sorry for your loss and wishing you days of peace within your heart ♥ and congrats on sharing such a personal story.

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  46. Big love and thoughts and prayers being sent your way from South Carolina!

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  47. What a sweet post to honor your brother and a sweet photo of the two of you. I'm so sorry, Natasha. Keep those wonderful memories alive and the special times and fun that you had together. Thinking of you....

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  48. this is such a beautiful post! sending much love your way! I have lost loved ones in my life as well and its hard to share but its beautiful when you do xo

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  49. Oh I can hardly type through my tears! I'm so sorry for your loss, I have two brothers whom I love so much. I hope you find comfort in knowing that we care! That picture of you two is just precious.

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  50. Sending hugs your way Natasha!

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  51. I'm late on this, but a big, huge hug to you. I know sharing that wasn't easy. xoxo

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  52. Aw, such a sweet pic. What an awesome tradition! I wish I had done the dinner thing with all of my dad's best friends. I'm noting that... Sending hugs!

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