I can't believe it's already June 1st. Today marks the month that our son will be born! It's hard to believe that we have been waiting for this month to arrive since way back in September when we found out we were expecting. And what a journey it has been.
This month, particularly this day, holds a special place in my heart. Today is my brother's birthday...he would be 27 today.
{Me holding my little baby brother}
It's hard to believe he has been gone for 6 years. A part of my life stopped the day he left us...and yet I can't believe how much life has still gone on. I think about the fact that I'm welcoming my son into this world...my own little boy who I have so many hopes and dreams for. My own little boy who I hope to see grow into a successful young man and have his own family one day. I want things for my son that my brother never got the chance to experience...his life cut short far too early. I wish he could meet his nephew and teach him all the things he loved to do, like how to create with legos or how to build a skateboard ramp or a treehouse, how to excel at any sport he puts his heart and mind to...and most of all how to dream.
{Celebrating my college graduation...our last photo together}
I also wish that my son could know his uncle...a young man who was extremely talented with his hands, tenacious, hard-headed, loving, driven, competitive, confident, and above all passionate. He had a zest for life that was contagious...he seemed to always be a part of the next big thing and he dreamed big. He was a loyal and fierce friend and dog lover. Though he was my younger brother, he was protective, like a big brother would be. We were also fiercely competitive...which in reflection seems so petty now. However, I know above all, how much he loved me and how proud he would be to an uncle.
Our son's middle name will be after my brother, Grant, in honor and memory of him. I know he's shining down on us and will protect our little guy like he did for me.
Thanks for allowing me to open up and share today. I know that June will bring us more joy now than sadness and that makes me so very happy. It's funny how life works that way, don't you think?
Happy Birthday Brother...love you always!
xo natasha








































